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Lord forgive me for all the times I could not see Your joy during my own perceived struggling. Lord forgive me for not opening my eyes to Your children when they needed me most. Lord forgive me for being combative and judgmental when Your people needed a calm presence or prayer. Lord forgive me for being quick-tempered and exhausted when your patience and strength was always there for the taking. Lord forgive me for thinking I know what is best for everyone including myself when it is Your will not my own sense of strong will I want to follow. Lord forgive me for judging others actions in their time of illness and desperation. Lord heal all those who are sick especially my father during his chemo and radiation. Lord I am so sorry for not being there for Your people more. For judging them. For doubting them. For putting up walls and not trusting them. I am so sorry Heavenly Father. Help me to have the non-anxious presence only You provide. Help me to be at rest in Your Love God. Help me. I want to be Your Light and Love for Your people. I am so filled with sin and pain Lord take away all sadness and bring Your joy. Take away all worry and bring Your calm. Lord take away all fear and judgment and hate. We receive Your presence. We receive Your divinity. We receive your wholeness and pure goodness and everlasting-light. Lord thank you for Your bounty and Your will. May I take each breath today with You. May I make each movement with You. May my thoughts be present to You Lord. May my actions serve You Lord. May I say Yes to You Lord. All I have is right now with You. I feel Your presence. Your stillness. Your peace. God thank you. May the world's suffering be lifted by saying Yes to You Christ Jesus. Amen.